GRAR!!

Lol, nice title huh? I don't know what to title this... Britt, I love you to death and thank you for bein' my girly side. I am trying my best to accept it's over. I know that in reality, me and Derrick are never gonna be together and we're never gonna work out. That's just how it is. But AHHH!!! Even just talking to him... I can't help it. I love talking to him. I love hearing about his day, hearing about lifting, work, school, football, everything. I love his voice. Man I'm lost. lol. What can I do? How do you forget about someone who you've basically given everything you can to. I would do anything for him... stupid boys. Oh well, I am working on being friends now. He will just have to be my very hansom friend who has the most gorgeous eyes in the world and well, that I have trusted with everything. He's the only person that's ever known everything there is to know about me and yet still loved me for me. I say that... and yet this is the guy that basically said he can't be with me because I'm not Church of Christ and because I'm too liberal and I don't know why else... I guess I'm not cool enough for him any more... you know how it is to date a band nerd... total public disgrace apparently. *rolls eyes* But he is my closest friend and up until recently I have trusted him with everything. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be fully over him but I'm doing my best. I love him... God grant me the patience to make it through this, the strength to carry on, and the grace to move on. lata.-M