Bleah

Sad, lost, confused, pained, drained, hurt, and stupid. Wish there was something I could do. Nothing. I hate his emotions controlling mine and I don't know how to stop it. All I want to do is let go and yet all I can do is hold on. Keep holding on... don't let me go...

Different Person, Same Body

Today I was going through some of my old things on my computer and after reading them, it was like I didn't know who had written them. One of the things was a letter I had intended on sending to Derrick and after reading it I just kept wondering who wrote that? Which one of me wrote that? I am not nearly as unconfident or anything now. I am with Matt, he is amazing and great and everything I could ever ask for. I love ebing w/ him. He makes me happy. When I'm with him, I'm strong, sure, I'm Morgan! lol. The Derrick letter... wow... Idk who that was but I dont think it was me. So weak and confused... man, I was really depressing last year... lol. I'm glad that's all over now. Idk what to write here... I wanted to write a lot but I don't know what to write now that I've started. Well, now I've gone off and done other stuff and can no longer remember my point so lol, my bad... adios